Ever have one of those weeks when everything seems to go wrong?
Today was a low point for me, my family and I have been hit pretty hard financially the past few years. Our student loans kicked in and suddenly, ends weren’t meeting anymore.
With the arrival of my son a year ago, I wasn’t able to work full time since daycare costs simply made it impossible. With finances tight, my car breaking down this week and my son accidentally sending the vacuum right through the TV, I had already been about to throw my hands in the air and just give up. Especially since we’re about to lose our home to the bank on the 28th.
Things just couldn’t seem to be any worse.
Then God reminded me that despite all of this, I am blessed.
On my way to work, I drove past the same homeless guy at the freeway off-ramp that I always see every morning. I usually don’t stop but today, he looked really bad. His face was full of ugly bruises and purple scrapes and as he leaned over his cane, he literally looked like he was going to pass out at any moment.
I rolled down my window and asked if I could help take him to a hospital or a rescue center. He said he’d just spent the night at the hospital after being beat up by the police. He didn’t want to be taken anywhere so I gave him whatever I could and told him I’d say a prayer for him.
All that time, he’d been looking down at the ground while we talked but when I said that, he looked up at me and I noticed his blue piercing eyes filled with tears. I told him that God loved him and he said, “I’m not so sure.”
That’s when it hit me. Despite all I’m facing, despite my worries, I am not alone like this man is. No family, no home, not even someone to pray to. The only thing that comforts me is my faith. I can’t imagine ever feeling that utterly alone and uncared for.
Remember when all you have to worry about is going to work, making sure your wedding is perfect, paying your bills, making sure you’re house is clean, etc. there are so many others worrying about whether they’ll survive the cold tonight. Worrying for their safety. Wondering when they’ll be able to have another meal.
We are blessed. Truly.